I like only the non-christmas parts of Christmas. I like friends gathering, freezing while looking at lights in a botanical garden, doing a few things that are just "right" for the holidays. I like eating dessert. I hate gifts, I hate expectations, I hate the pressure of being Holly jolly in December. I hate literal strangers wishing me happy holidays on the sidewalk as we pass each other?? ( I may or may not be a Grinch - a movie i do like). I hate the constant reminders that other people have parents and I don't. I just let it ride. At least I get some time off.
I mean you ARE a grinch but also this is all very valid. I think the distinction of “non Christmas parts” makes a lot of sense. Let’s eat and hang and look at lights!! The obligation makes my head hurt though.
I so relate to this. I definitely felt it more when I was busier (working full time) but even with my time freedom (which I’m incredibly grateful for) it’s been hard this year. I’m exhausted. I feel like I need to take a very long nap from Halloween to New Years. I actually put it on my calendar for next year. To not teach classes. To take a social media break. To slow down even more.
And yes to sitting with it all. After all, THAT is life. Contrast.
And the grief - yep. The contrast of not having our loved ones that have passed, and your grandmother passing on Xmas Eve, it adds to the complexity for sure.
I like only the non-christmas parts of Christmas. I like friends gathering, freezing while looking at lights in a botanical garden, doing a few things that are just "right" for the holidays. I like eating dessert. I hate gifts, I hate expectations, I hate the pressure of being Holly jolly in December. I hate literal strangers wishing me happy holidays on the sidewalk as we pass each other?? ( I may or may not be a Grinch - a movie i do like). I hate the constant reminders that other people have parents and I don't. I just let it ride. At least I get some time off.
Oh and I hate Christmas music!!!
Even Wham!?
I mean you ARE a grinch but also this is all very valid. I think the distinction of “non Christmas parts” makes a lot of sense. Let’s eat and hang and look at lights!! The obligation makes my head hurt though.
I so relate to this. I definitely felt it more when I was busier (working full time) but even with my time freedom (which I’m incredibly grateful for) it’s been hard this year. I’m exhausted. I feel like I need to take a very long nap from Halloween to New Years. I actually put it on my calendar for next year. To not teach classes. To take a social media break. To slow down even more.
And yes to sitting with it all. After all, THAT is life. Contrast.
And the grief - yep. The contrast of not having our loved ones that have passed, and your grandmother passing on Xmas Eve, it adds to the complexity for sure.
Sending virtual love ❤️
I always forget how taxing this time is until it’s here!!!